I read something the other day that made a lot of sense to me. It compared crossdressing to being left handed. People that are left handed can use the hand that everybody else uses, but it's frustrating and doesn't feel right.
I've felt like that a lot lately.
I had to stop at Target earlier tonight. I was alone (and I rarely get to shop alone) and contemplated picking up my first makeup. I really would have liked to, and was feeling brave enough to do it, but worried that my wife would have freaked if she found out. She has said she'll be ok with it.. but I don't feel like she's there yet and I don't want to push boundaries. I feel like I'm in hiding again.